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The Journal
Of Heroic Destiny
Nazi Germany
Diary of an SS Officer
Preface I especially like this account because it illustrates how one can derive heroic inspiration from indigenous mythology without rejecting science, behaving unjustly towards others, or being deceived by the false agendas of governments. I would only hope that if I had lived during these years that I could have acquitted myself even half as well as this very exceptional individual. The journal was bequeathed to me from the estate of Valdison's good friend Dr. Norbert Bertram Warner. Disclosure of identities was authorized only last year. Although for purposes of safety there was no mention of children in the journal, it is known that Wallie had a son with Helga Ingram in 1972. The name given to me was Garrett Phelan Valdison.
Errol Harlan Thurlow
Stockholm Sweden March 16, 2003 ___
Of Heroic Destiny The Novel Childhood
October 11, 1900
In a modern hospital in Gothenburg Sweden, a nine and a half pound boy, Waldron Sigfried Valdison is born. His parents
call him Wallie.
Winter 1903
On a snowy slope in the mountains, his twenty eight year old mother is skiing slowly backwards holding the hands of,
blond, blue-eyed Wallie. His tiny skis are only one foot long. His thirty five year old father, waiting for his turn, is watching
with parental delight. They teach Wallie to ski so well that he is expert by age seven.
Summer 1906
In a field, Wallie is frisking with a big wolf-gray Malamute named Oob. His contented parents are sitting in big wooden
lawn chairs watching. Just before dinner, his father tells Wallie about their ancestor Baron Elof II and the fight for free
thought and absolute liberty begun long ago.
Wallie has many friends at school. Both parents and his Grandma are good cooks. They travel frequently to Germany on business vacations. Wallie loves Germany and learns fluent German by age eight. The family often visits a good friend Gustav Flodine at his country villa. Autumn 1908
Standing on the green lawn near the
red and orange woods, Wallie with his father, are shooting at tin cans with a Mauser “Broom-Handle” automatic
pistol. Wallie shoots very well, showing tremendous speed accuracy. Wallie’s
father is delighted, but warns “Just remember, Wallie, every gun is different.”
Summer 1909
Electrical inventor Eric Peterson comes to visit. He is married to Gustav Flodine's daughter Agnes. Later Wallie’s
father tells him. “Eric is a friend of the scientist, Charles Steinmetz and was with Guglielmo Marconi on the occasion
of first transatlantic communication.”
June 1910 In front of the big gray stone library, Wallie is raking the lawn. It’s his first working summer, and he soon learns the value of diligence and frugality. He attempts to cultivate within himself a disdain for the ownership of material things. The money he earns will go further, and he will have greater mobility. One can enjoy nice things out and about, or in museums, without having to own or maintain them. His mother tells him that he is awfully serious for a boy his age. She says he was even serious when he was a baby, but not grumpy. Wallie is very pleased to hear this and takes it as a compliment. In Wallie’s room there are a great many books in a ffine wooden case he built for them. Every night he reads at his desk. He begins a diverse program of summer study and enjoys Old Norse mythology, and reads Snorri Sturlusson. June 1911 Wallie reads Alphonse Louis Constant, studies Rosicrucian
books and Hebrew Qabalah. He comes to value spiritual self-determination.
While in Chamonix-Mont Blanc for skiing, at a lodge in the snow-clad mountains, Wallie and his parents meet an interesting couple, Joseph Wagner and Marie Gangolf, who say they see war clouds gathering over Europe and are planning to move to America. June 1913 In a nice hotel room, Wallie spends all night with a shapely twenty-two year old platinum blond woman, who likes to initiate young men into the mysteries of sex. From here forward Wallie enjoys one skinny or zaftig lady per month, but not more than this. Most sought-after pleasures are costly, frivolous, and produce dependency. Simply keeping a good outlook makes nearly everything pleasurable without disadvantage. June 1914 Wallie is sitting at his desk as usual. He is now reading Read Richard von Kraft-Ebbing, Sigmund Freud, Herbert Silberer, Carl Jung. March 1918. At the big stone schoolhouse, Wallie and schoolmate friend Nori Warner call themselves warriors of heroic destiny. They often discuss the value of unimpeded evolution and individual liberty. They agree that those who truly value these things are an extreme minority in every country on Earth, like sighted people amidst the blind. One night they swear a solemn oath. In the dark two candles
are burning on a table. Wallie is reading from a sheet of paper, “We herein assembled swear to never make unjust encroachment
against any living thing, to always stand stalwart against the legions of mediocrity, to defend our own or family liberty
without hesitation or guilt, even unto grim and bloody death, and to exert libertarian influence whenever and whenever possible
all the rest of our lives, no matter where we may find ourselves and whatever else we may have to do.” Nori and Wallie together “So be it!”
April 21, 1918 In a blue sky with fields below, a red Fokker DR1 Tri-plane is going down.to crash. April 22, 1918 Wallie is sad to hear that Manfred von Richthofen was shot down yesterday. He loves the people on both sides in this pitiful war, and knows that none of it would be happening if people were awake. University
June 20, 1918 June 23, 1918 Wallie visits the shop of a jeweler who shows him a chart
of Norse Runes. Wallie asks the jeweler to make him a heavy silver ring inscribed with the entire Elder Futhark alphabet.
Wallie is carrying a number of books as he enters the
front gate at Stockholm University to begin his first day of studies. At Versailles in France, Woodrow Wilson is with Calomel Edward Mandell House, David Lloyd George, and Georges Clemenceau, who are seated watching, as he adds his signature on the treaty ending WWI. Wallie feels excited when he hears the news. He has often thought of living in Germany, and the rebuilding period should offer many opportunities for someone his age. He has apparently anticipated this day, because that very night he is sitting at his desk filling out an application for transfer to the University of Munich starting in the fall semester. June 26, 1919 Wallie arrives in Munich. July 1919 Wallie gets his first driver's permit and buys a good
used Audi, blue w grey interior. He explores the local countryside. At night he plans a program of world travel.
September 1919 June 1920 Wallie pursues arcane studies in summer, and is at his
desk reading a big blue book, Aleister Crowley's "Blue Equinox.”
Oktoberfest 1920 One night Wallie has a close call with Communists. Well underway, one thug is already lying dead on the ground. Wallie is fighting another who has a knife in his right hand, but Wallie has the man’s right wrist in his left hand. He gives the man a quick right in the solar plexus, then takes the knife from the man’s hand with his right hand, and with an arcing swoop, sticks it in the man’s ribs. The man falls. Wallie touches a bad cut on his forehead. This incident convinces him to carry a 7mm Luger with silencer, under his coat from here on. March 1921 Wallie’s grandma goes through transition
June 1922
July 1922 His father says Zeppelin business will grow. Wallie begins to invest some portion of his earnings back into it whenever he gets money ahead. He goes book shopping and increases his arcane studies. One day he takes an Oath of Silence, simply a resolution not to speak more than necessary. On a flat grassy field Wallie is in a dual cockpit training plane with an instructor. He has begun flying lessons, and learns very quickly. He starts keeping a personal journal and reconstructs the early years in the same format. August 14, 1922 Wallie meets a pretty young auburn-haired Witch named
Helga Ingram. At a nice sidewalk café, they are sitting at a cozy table talking eating lunch. She is head of coven comprising
twelve other more or less attractive women, and invites Wallie to join them for what will turn out to be naked activities
in the woods.
In an antique shop, Wallie is looking at case full of gleaming cutlery. He buys a fine large handmade dagger, and plans to have it inscribed with the proper runes. September 16, 1922 Wallie is positioning small table against center of the north wall in the second smallest room in his house, now his ritual chamber. September 21, 1922 In the Hartz Range, Wallie climbs the Brocken Mountain with Helga. Wallie is traces pentagrams of visualized white fire in thin air with his new dagger. He consecrates the Elder Futhark Ring and then the dagger as field athame. Wallie, holding the blade high, ”I name thee Liberator.” Helga and her coven are naked in a clearing in the woods illuminated by a small bonfire. Tonight Wallie serves them as Priapic Celebrant for their Samhain Ritual “Life is wonderful here in Germany” says Wallie with a happy smile, despite soreness. He sleeps very late next day. November 1922 Wallie begins reading Friedrich Nietzsche and Oswald Spengler; He buys his own Fokker D7, hardly used, and gives it sporty multichrome paint job with large Swedish non-military markings for safety. December 1922 Wallie visits Aleister Crowley his abbey, Thelema, in Sicily. They are sitting outside in lawn chairs, and talk about many things especially the universal spiritual quest of mankind. Crowley is lighting his meerschaum pipe as Wallie says, “The only real morality is absolute libertarian reciprocity. All else is merely criminal rationalization.” Crowley blows a big smoke ring which travels rapidly for about forty feet and breaks as it encircles the navel of a young nude woman cast in bronze. Crowley smiles with satisfaction, Wallie with amazement and delight. Crowley replies: “Interesting way to put it. You speak very succinctly.” They discuss war and the better possibilities of what Crowley terms the “New Aeon.” February 12, 1923 Wallie loins Rosicrucian Order. Goering April 21, 1923 It is the fifth anniversary of Manfred von Richthofen's death At an old airfield with single story gray wooden buildings, war ace Hermann Goring is alone enjoying a sentimental visit to the old JG1, Richthofen's Squadron, and his own. Wearing leather flying jacket and cap, he is walking around remembering the days of adventure during the 1914-1918 War. In the distance he hears a plane engine and looks up to see Wallie’s Fokker D7. With a look of astonishment... “What in the world?” The plane circles rapidly and lands abruptly with no wasted motion. Wallie, cheeks rosy from the cold, springs deftly from the plane. Goering advances to meet him and says, “You fly very well.” Wallie replies, “Thank you. That means a good deal, considering... My name is Wallie Valdison. You're Hermann Goering, aren't you? “Yes” Goering replies. They shake hands, smiling warmly as those who immediately trust each other. Goering gestures towards the plane. “Quite a paint job.” Wallie replies, “Yes. I fly all over Europe. It keeps farmers from shooting at me when they're out crow hunting.” Goering chuckles, and then is suddenly serious. “You know, I've always felt it was one of those fellows on the ground who actually nailed Richthofen, angle of the bullet and other factors. Ever do any stunt flying?” “No. I've been busy with studies and travel. I want to help in some way with the rebuilding of Germany, but I'm torn between that and my interest in archeology. Goering looks thoughtful, “It may happen that in the future you will be able to combine the two. Will you be going to the party rally in Nuremberg this autumn? “I've thought of it from time to time.” “If you decide to go, I can introduce you to people who can help you fulfill both your goals. In preparation you should bone up on German anthropology, history, ancestral religion, and archeology. The two men walk around together. Goering shows Wallie the entire squadron layout. They begin to get hungry. Goering asks, “Will you join me for lunch? I brought Jägerschnitzel and a good Riesling.” “Yes. How can I refuse? Thank you.” The food is hot in thermal containers. They sit down at an old outdoor picnic style table on opposite benches. Goering dishes out the food and they begin to eat. “So, Wallie, have you heard the latest news about the Ruhr being occupied by France and Belgium demanding reparations?” “Yes, the German reaction is understandable, but the inflation isn't helping, is it?” Goering replies, “Stresemann is planning something. Are you aware that I've reformed the Luftwaffe? “I had heard rumors.” Goering asks, “How would you like to join us?” Wallie pauses to phrase delicately, “I'm very honored that you would ask, but relative to my goals as a non-German, I think it's just too dangerous, like being a duck with too many hunters…This Hitler is certainly an energetic man, isn't he? Do you think he'll succeed with his National Socialism? “He will succeed ultimately. It won't be easy, but I’ll follow him to Hell and back if need be.” Flying home over green fields in late afternoon Wallie is thinking that in the years ahead he will probably come to view this coincidence in meeting Hermann Goering as a very fortuitous one. He knows that Goering must trust him implicitly. Notes: Jägerschnitzel is a large pork cutlet "hunter style" topped with mushroom sauce, bacon, onions, and served with buttered spätzle and parsley. Goering must trust Wallie because at this time, the Luftwaffe is still secret and in violation of the Treaty of Versailles.
Himmler September 1923
Wallie attends the Nazi Party Rally in Nuremberg. He is nicely dressed in a makeshift flyer’s uniform, talking
with Goering. Heinrich Himmler walks up.
“Heinrich, this is Waldron Valdison, a good friend of Germany from Sweden. Besides being a fine pilot, he specializes in arcane studies and archaeology.” Wallie and Himmler shake hands. Goering
spots Hitler at a distance, and walks briskly away to join him. Himmler asks. “Arcane studies... Have you read anything connected with the work of Dietrich Eckart or Hans Horbiger?” “Nothing of Eckhart’s. I’ve read a little second hand commentary on Horbiger’s cosmological theory. Exciting, but unprovable.” Himmler raises an eyebrow at Wallie’s self-assured demeanor, but two days later sends him a list of readings with a note stating that he has prepared the way for Wallie to meet several people who will contact him individually. October 1923 In a park near the river meets Dietrich Eckart, a very interesting fellow. They sit down. As the older man speaks, Wallie is writing in a small notebook. Eckart tells him that the best course of action is to follow Hitler. At Wallie’s request he suggests additional reading. November 1923 In a physics lab Wallie is auditing a lecture as Hans Horbiger in a white lab coat, talks with intensity, pointing to a chalk blackboard drawing of the earth orbited by four moons. Horbiger is explaining his "Welteislehre" Cosmology. Wallie finds it fascinating, and consistent with scientific laws. It explains all geological, paleontological, archaeological, and historical mysteries. The only problem is that there is no way to prove any of it. What Wallie said to Himmler was correct. Inspiring theory, but not good science to insist that it is true just because it could be true.
“You! Get dressed, now!” “What’s wrong?” asks Wallie. The policeman is very angry and swings his truncheon at Wallie’s face. Wallie dodges, but not fast enough. The truncheon hits his left shoulder. Wallie groans, scrambles for his pistol, and shoots the policeman between the eyes. He looks at Inga who seems perplexed, but not that terrified. Wallie comments, “A very cruel and bossy man. I really dislike being interrupted this way, but I must also say that I’m quite disappointed in myself.” Inga gives him a quizzical look. “I didn't listen to Pa about individual guns. I actually aimed for the center of his forehead. My shot was four centimeters low. Now I'll have to practice.” Inga smirks. Wallie drags the body outside, wrapped in the usual shower curtain. Luckily it’s a ground floor unit with a private door yard. Wallie loads the body into the trunk of his car. He drives to the river while Inga scrubs police brains off the wall. Next morning Wallie has her call his hotel pretending to be a secretary with urgent business. Wallie leaves Berlin immediately.
March 1924 Himmler asks, “Have you considered attainment within any fraternal system besides the Rosicrucian Order?” “Many are interesting, but I have always preferred spiritual development to be an individual matter. I can self-initiate using books offered by fraternal groups without having to waste time on socializing, meetings, and protocol. Self-initiation, of course, requires great honesty with oneself. Himmler again looks surprised by youthful Wallie’s independent self-confidence, and replies. “Yes, it does.” Wallie adds, “Except for my Rosicrucian work, the grades, of course, won’t be officially acknowledged or archived, but I’m seeking only attainment. With arcane matters, recognition of attainment has little utility.” Hitler July 1924
Wallie and Goering visit Adolf Hitler in Landsburg Prison. The cell is equipped
with a chair and small desk, upon which is a book manuscript well in progress. Hitler smiles and seems to like Wallie. The
three men talk for about forty minutes. When the visitors are back outside, Goring, hopimg for a comment, looks at Wallie,
who comments.
“He’s certainly a very intense, but likable, man.” September 2, 1924 Wallie is eating lunch with his parents in their kitchen, while visiting Gothenburg. Wallie’s mother observes, “You look good, but too thin!” Wallie sucks in his cheeks to look really thin. February 1925 In a private library, Wallie is sitting at a big table talking about Norse mythology and the Thule Society with Rudolf von Serbottendorff, who convinces Wallie to join, and hands him an application. April 1925 Wallie is visiting France, and is well dressed as he enters the main building at the Paris Exposition. Later he says to his lady friend, “I’m very impressed by all this new “Art Deco.”, it’s very stylishly modernistic, but elegant and demure.” July 1925 At an outdoor café Wallie is sipping coffee with Helga. Having finally read Mein Kampf, he is discussing it at some length with her. She comments, “I agree with what he says about Jewish monopolistic control, but it seems a pity to have to lump all persons of any religious group together in such a wholesale mann March 1926 Wallie has gotten a request to visit Hitler at his office, and is sitting opposite him at his desk. Hitler gets right to the point, “I’m hoping you might join
my elite personal guard, the SS.” Wallie tries to look enthusiastic, but is slightly bewildered. Hitler looks surprised, then sympathetic. “Don’t worry! You’ll be assigned to archaeological expeditions whenever humanly possible. Wallie is surprised that Hitler remembers this level of detail about him, and smiles, as he thinks quickly to himself, “Good exercise. Need the money. Handsome uniform... But I’ll keep to my own dagger.” Now with genuine enthusiasm he answers. “Yes, I feel honored that you would ask. Thank you, I will be very happy to join.” July 4, 1926 In a large auditorium Wallie attends the founding ceremony for the Hitler Youth. There are in attendance many Nazi officials and German families with young boys. August 16, 1927 Recently Wallie has compiled data regarding spiritual dualism. He stands in his ritual chamber, with a complex drawing before him on the altar. With the dagger, Liberator, he traces pentagrams to the four quarters. Now he consecrates his Pentacle, a symbol of the universe reflecting the aspirant's perceived place therein. August 19, 1927 Wallie is at the Nuremberg Rally again. Hitler introduces
him to SA officer Franz Von Pfeffer. What a spectacle it is today. Wallie decides to attend this wonderful function every
year from here forward.
Visiting Berlin, Wallie finally rendezvous with Nori Warner. One night on the town,
they have drinks with two good looking women, Lotte Lenya and her friend Greta, who will be Warners's future wife. There is
jazz in the background. Wallie is feeling exuberant and declares,
“German jazz is just so insanely wholesome.” February 12, 1928 Again Wallie climbs the Brocken Mountain, this time with Helga and six other Witches. In formal forest green robes they found the Ordo Sangrealis Baphometis. Despite the Hebrew based nomenclature, the order is based on a balanced spiritual view stressing individual liberty and utilizing traditional Nordic personifications. Wallie and the girls have an orgy of sex afterwards at Helga's house. He decides to keeps this, arcane matters in general, and all libertarian business completely private until many years later. July 1928 For several nights in his library, there now follows a period of inspiration wherein Wallie writes the very comprehensive "Liber OSB" a body of doctrine for the Ordo Sangrealis Baphometis. Goebbels September 1928
At Nuremberg. Alfred Rosenberg introduces Wallie to Magda and Joseph Goebbels. As they admire the splendor of their surroundings.
Josef speaks first,
“I’ve just finished proofing a piece where I describe Communism as the dictatorship of the inferior”. Wallie chuckles with delight, “That’s splendid! And directly to the point.” The official music starts and they stop talking. Wallie looks very thoughtful as he gazes at his new friends and then at the vast crowd in attendance. Wallie thinks to himself, “I get along very well with all the Nazi leaders I've met, but will never join the Party, because the economic principles are not viable. Socialism, even if it is nationalistic cannot work, and no amount of rhetoric will never make it work, any more than calling it by another name will make it any different from Communism. Although it was Jews who initiated Marxism in Russia, it is the general Judeo-Christian tendency towards indiscriminate charity which sustains mandatory wealth redistribution by government, no matter what this is called. Promoting the Capitalist writings of Ludwig von Mises and other Austrian free market economists is what will defeat Communism. If these leaders had more time to read, they would know that Mises completely had refuted every principle of Marxism by 1920. New arrivals. Wallie exchanges greetings with Carin and Hermann Goering, who looks very contented, “What a splendid day we have for this” Wallie nods affirmatively. A large procession begins in the distance. They watch in silence. Again Wallie looks contemplative, and thinks further, “Central bank nationalization, free enterprise
within national borders and, after economies prosper and stabilize, free world trade will solve every problem on Earth. The
free market economists condemn only the kind of unchecked finance Capitalism which allows international bankers to engineer
economic upheavals leading to war so they can lend money to both sides. If people would only read more and talk less…
In spite of everything I must admit that I love the grand spectacle of the Nazi rallies. I guess it's the Viking in me. If
only the Reich's program could be equal to the spirit and highest ideals which animate it.’
July 1929 August 1929 At Nuremberg, after receiving a Day Badge, Wallie talks with Joachim von Ribbentrop, who is dressed for this occasion in a very fancy uniform. With an admiring glance, Wallie says, “I must insist upon the name of your boot maker!” Ribbentrop looks delighted and smiles proudly September 8, 1929 Visiting his parents in Gothenburg. they are in the kitchen eating lunch. Wallie always enjoys these meals at home, like when he was little. His father just bought a snazzy looking new Volvo. Red w saddle leather interior. March 1930 On the telephone Wallie finally manages to gain some influence in Zeppelin activity, but has little time to study company activities. April 1930 At his desk, Wallie composes a letter suggesting that Zeppelin make contracts with river shipping companies for wider distribution, if they haven't done so already. May 4, 1930 In Geneva, Wallie is entering a gold depository with a well-dressed grey haired man. This is the first of his secret trips to Geneva where he invests in precious and strategic metals. Oktoberfest 1931 Berlin. In an outdoor beer garden, Wallie is talking enthusiastically with Karl Haushofer. After drinking a good deal of dark beer from large clear steins. Karl convinces Wallie to join the Munich Institute of Geopolitics. December 1931 In a small auditorium with a podium, Heinrich Himmler is speaking to an assembly of SS personnel, including Wallie. He announces marriage requirements for all SS men. January 1932 At his desk, Wallie is on the phone. He calls his doctor and asks him to write a fictitious letter to SS Headquarters claiming that Wallie is sterile. March 1932 Wallie is reading a letter at his desk, with a worldly smirk. He has been granted permission not to marry. Wallie thinks to himself, “Wonderbar, now he can carry on with my dear Witches without any foolish governmental interference.” June 22, 1932 Wallie begins anonymous mailings to Nazi Party leaders, presenting them with simple concise information about the superior workability of Capitalism and liberty. He feels the examples provided by America, Canada, and Australia in the last century, before the bankers took over, are the only proof any economist or politician should ever need. Oktoberfest 1932 Again Wallie visits the wicked ladies of Hamburg. In the lady’s bedroom, he has an exhausting evening with a big shapely brunette. He thinks later “Oh yes, my Brunella is the Cat's Propeller, but it’s well for my health that I don’t live too near to Hamburg.” April 1933 Visiting New York on leave, Wallie sees Duke Ellington's Orchestra at the Cotton Club. He is in tuxedo, with a Veronica Lake type girl, but a redhead, wearing a slinky black dress. They are enjoying Champagne while listening to the music. Another night, they see Cab Calloway. One evening Wallie’s redhead is visiting her mother, so he dons his tuxedo, and goes uptown to partake of a fine supper at Café Society. Here enjoys the well dressed, up and coming singer/piano player Hazel Scott, and meets a nice young couple, Erk and Priscilla Kelly from Birmingham Alabama. Erk's uncle, Sir Erskine Ramsay, owns a big steel mill there. Priscilla is wearing a demure black dress with single strand of white pearls. She is very beautiful and has dark brown hair. She tells Wallie about her swinging young cousin Helen Pinkson from Boston. Later, at a large elegant after-hours party venue somewhere in the city, Wallie is back with his redhead cutie. They are talking music with Cab Calloway. Everybody is enjoying pink champagne. Many are smoking fragrant high grade hashish. May 1933 On a street in Munich, late at night, an old couple is huddled together watching while Wallie shoots it out with five ugly Communist thugs. He kills the two biggest of them. Three others run off, one wounded. He is happy to have rescued these nice old people from, at very least, beating and robbery. They thank him warmly, and he says, “I’m glad to help. I just hopes the three surviving thugs don't see mr first next time.” August 30, 1933 Nuremberg. There is a big gathering in front of the Frauenkirche. Wallie dislikes crowds and is watching from moderate distance. September 1933 Changes in the SS. Wallie’s unit is now to be called the Leibstandarte SS Adolf Hitler. With this comes nice new quarters. March 1934 In a small auditorium, Wallie is sitting with an assembly listening to a speaker at the Chamber of Culture in Berlin. He decides to join. April 28, 1934 The Life Saving Medal is presented to Wallie for helping the old people last year. It was discovered that one of the dead thugs he shot was wanted for nine murders. June 30, 1934 Himmler is shuffling papers at his office desk. In the waiting area, Wallie gets talking about Hamburg with a young SS man named Pfister. Finally Himmler presents them both with the first of the SS Honor Rings and parchment citation documents. July 25, 1934 Gothenburg. Wallie and his mother are pruning staked tomato plants in her vegetable garden. They enjoy a good pot roast dinner with fresh cut spinach afterwards. August 1934 Visiting Paris on SS business, in a nightclub, Wallie is back in his tuxedo with a foxy blonde eating Filet Minot with black mushroom gravy, as they listen to Louis Armstrong with his orchestra playing a rousing blues instrumental. Superb as usual. Wallie wishes however, that he could have seen him again with Bertha Hill. September 1934 Nuremberg. Grand spectacle as always. Wally is talking with an SS officer sporting a short beard, Wolfram von Sievers. Oktoberfest 1934 In an outdoor beer garden, Wallie is sitting with a big voluptuous raven-haired woman who is very drunk. He is trading glances with a cute, petit blonde alone at a nearby table. The raven-haired woman suddenly passes out and starts to slip off her chair. Wallie grabs her arm and eases her down to the ground. Then he beckons to the waiter, says a word or two, grabs his sandwich, gets up, walks over, introduces himself, and continues lunch with the blonde. January 1935 Wallie tries out in the alpine and ski jumping categories for upcoming Winter Olympics. He is skiing expertly through a slalom to the finish line. Olympic people with stopwatches, pads, and pencils are making notations. He doesn't quite make the cut, but does very well for someone his age.
March 16, 1935
In a small auditorium, Hitler makes
an announcement to the press that the Reich has enacted military conscription. Wallie is disappointed, but not surprised.
July 1935 Wallie has joined the Ahnenerbe division of the SS for archeological research. In a large room at a long oak table Wallie is seated with others. Wolfram von Sievers is standing at the head of the table speaking. He’s using a pointer stick to indicate details on a big chart behind him showing the evolutionary development of skulls. At last Wallie’s university training will come into play. December 12, 1935 On a small airstrip in France, Wallie is running along,
leading a small boy by the hand. He helps the boy into a small fast monoplane. Three policemen come running up and shoot with
pistols at the plane as it becomes airborne in the distance. There is a bullet hole in cockpit window. Wallie puts a large
piece of tape over the hole as he pilots the plane. Wallie looks at the boy and they both smile. The boy looks hopeful. This
is Wallie’s first active night of adventure in the Lebensborn. His duty involves flying dangerous missions to rescue
German children from foreign orphanages. The kids are given homes with deserving German couples. Wallie is nearly killed on
several of these occasions, but happy little faces make it well worth the risk.
Wallie receives an Olympic Decoration for helping to organize the games. The Reich gives medals for just about everything, but it helps to engender pride and Wallie likes it. February 6, 1936 At the Winter Games in Garmisch-Partenkirchen Wallie is with a pretty blonde woman. They are at the Downhill Race finish line, watching as the racers come in and stop fast.
July 1936
U-83 Submarine Squadron. In the mess
hall Wallie enjoys a good roast chicken dinner with the crew.
November 8, 1936 Reich Animal Psychology Society. Wallie and is in a large room at a long table with a group of very gentile people. January 30, 1937 In a large auditorium there is a big gathering with many officials. Wallie is on the stage being presented with the National Prize Art and Science in Archeology. Several things are cited, including the explorations of Montsegur with Otto Rahn. At this point, Himmler and Sievers exchange a knowing glance. There is, of course, no mention of what was discovered. Wallie is proud of the objectivity which he has brought to these endeavors despite the agenda orientatiom of this period.
March 21, 1937
While is hiking in the Black Forest
with Helga. They hear loud clashing noises echoing through the trees. Eventually they come to a clearing and see two stags
fiercely locking horns in magnificent competition for females. Says Wallie,
“It seems this area of endeavor is less strenuous for humans than for other mammals, but not any simpler.” They watch from cover. May 1, 1937 Wallie is admiring a medal in case. Earlier in the day,
he received the Order of the German Eagle 5th Class. This is simply a general recognition of diverse noncombatant effort.
He chuckles as he thinks that he must ask Goering to recommend a tailor to make a special uniform to display all this handsome
gingerbread he is accumulating. May 6, 1937 June 1937
Speer
September 1937 November 6, 1937 Wallie is at his desk ending a telephone conversation. He looks thoughtful and begins to write in his journal. He has just found out the results of a big conference yesterday in Reich Chancellery. He writes, “Hitler explained plans for Lebensraum, the gaining of living space for Germans. I am glad of the small part I have played in helping to rebuild Germany since the last war, but I ealize now that I must leave as soon as possible. I will be a deserter, but this is Hitler's fight, not mine. Hitler is a brilliant politician, but the idea of invading Russia is absolutely absurd. If accepting the premise of empire, then it is clear that Hitler should join with Stalin and invade Africa. But education about the necessity of birth control is the best way to gain living space for Germans. If the Vikings had done this instead of raiding to the South, Scandinavia would not have been invaded by the Christians and the people would still have their Norse culture at home instead of the “Fish Basket Heresy, as Nori Warner and I have always called it.” December 1937 At Ahnenerbe headquarters, Wallie with others are seated at the big oak table. Wolfram von Sievers is walking around presenting members with rings in small boxes. These are special Ahnenerbe rings. The members insisted that the SS runes not be Art Deco stylized to resemble lightning bolts. Jan 30, 1938 Himmler is at his office desk. Wallie is standing. Himmler rises and hands him a medal in a case, then shakes his hand. This is the SS Long Service Award 2nd Class. Wallie is thinking to himself, “I never got involved in the arcane side of the SS, but I do admire, for itself, the "Articles of Faith" of Himmler’s Black Order. It reflects a superb intellectual understanding of spirituality. Such, of course, can be used for either good or evil depending on the goals of those involved.” April 1938 Wallie visits Berlin. In Martin Bormann’s office,
he meets Albert Spear, who offers to show him the new unfinished Reich Chancellery. A few days later as Wallie and Speer walk through, there are still men are working everywhere. As they walk, Speer explains, “The fine theory behind all this size is that a very long walk to Hitler’s office will make a much stronger impression on visitors about the relative importance of Germany in world affairs.” Wallie looks slightly annoyed by this idea, but replies, “Probably true.” Wallie is nonetheless very impressed with this building, “Being such a fine architect as this at the national level must be extremely satisfying. The legacy such a man leaves is very tangible and great.” Speer replies, “Oh, believe me, it is satisfying, but I would rather be building more necessary things. I just hope there will be funding enough to accomplish something as great in areas concerned with Germany’s general economic well-being and hegemony in European free trade.” May 1938 Wallie receives the Motor Sports Badge 1st Class for past minor racing triumphs on his days off. June 14, 1938 Wallie’s father goes through transition. In his mother’s kitchen in Gothenburg, they are eating lunch and look very glum. He decides to store a few of his father’s things at her house. July 8, 1938 In his driveway, Wallie is talking with a young couple to whom he has just sold his house and most of the contents.
July 12, 1938
Wallie is at attention. A Luftwaffe
officer hands him the Aircraft Pilot patch. Wallie thinks, “Better late than never.”
July 17, 1938
House hunting in Switzerland, Wallie
has done well. He is talking with the estate agent in front of a small, but ample, five room Art Deco house with privacy and
a view of the Swiss Alps behind.
August 2, 1938 In a legal office, Wallie is seated with others at a table. He produces a fat envelope and hands it to the seller’s attorney. Attorney and principals look surprised and quizzical, so Wallie explains, “It’s just a little matter of bank privacy. I’m using cash to avoid the possibility of anyone from Germany tracing my whereabouts through a bank transfer. Seems prudent with all that’s going on.” The others nod sympathetically. Now that Wallie has his new little house, he opens a bank account and transfers his funds in Berlin to Switzerland. August 8, 1938 Munich. At 8:05 A.M. Unknown to Wallie a huge cache of diamonds is being stolen from a secret high security vault in the Nazi treasury. A tall very disillusioned SS man is putting the diamonds into the hollow heels of both boots. Meanwhile, Wallie is back in Germany. Most of his money is already in Switzerland, so he withdraws the remaining cash from his bank in Munich, and eaves Germany with everything he owns, which is very little. 10:17 A.M. At a border check point with SS Totenkopf sign on the gate, Wallie is routinely stopped. The guard, who knows him, acts very officious and says, “Where are your papers, Swede?” Wallie chuckles and tells the guard he is on the way to Amsterdam for a short vacation. The guard smiles as he hands back Wallie’s papers. August 18, 1938 Wallie visits Paris to buy Art Deco furnishings for his house. He arranges for shipping at a small French postal station, He is carrying a big sack and looks glum, feeling a little sad as he mails his farewell letters to friends in Germany just before he leaves Paris. He thinks to himself, “Some, of course, will be angry with me for not staying around to commit suicide along with them.” August 22, 1938 Unknown to Wallie, a letter is received at Gestapo Headquarters
about the stolen diamonds. The Gestapo chief is on the telephone and has decided that Wallie is a prime suspect, because of
his departure from Germany just after the theft. A full scale search for Wallie is initiated.
September 1938 November 7, 1938 Paris, France. In a German embassy office, a young Jew, Herschel Grynszpan, produces a pistol and shoots diplomat Ernst vom Rath, to keep Germany from negotiating peace with France. Angry Germans who want peace, protest, by breaking Jewish shopkeepers’ windows all over Germany. November 9, 1938 Josef Goebbels, on his office phone, is talking with an SA officer. Goebbels wants to exploit the embassy aftermath and arranges for the SA to further instigate further window breaking. November 10, 1938 Hitler is contacted by many disgruntled Germans, and asks Himmler to order the SS to intervene and stop the whole business, what we now call “Kristallnacht.”
War March 1939 April 30, 1939 At the World's Fair in New York, Inside the Perisphere.
Wallie is gazing at Futurama, a wonderful look at the probable future, a huge
diorama with forests, farms, cars moving on roads, trains, and cities. He meets a young Japanese couple, Frank Ikabasu and
wife. They talk about the future of life on Earth.
Wallie stays in New York a whole month. One night, he gets all dressed up. The taxi driver tells him the Cotton Club closed long ago, but instead drives him to see a wonderful singer named Billie Holiday with orchestra. August 27, 1939 On an airfield, Goering is alone watching an inaudible, fast moving, very high flying plane. The British invented the turbojet engine, but today the German Heinkel He 178 becomes the first aircraft in the world to utilize it. September 3, 1939 Britain, France, Australia, and New Zealand have declare war on Germany. To Wallie It feels very good to be sitting next to his little kitchen stove safe at home. Someone must see to the hens, after all. September 10, 1939 Canada declares war on Germany. Battle of the Atlantic begins. In the Atlantic Ocean, the first battleship is moving under full power in the moonlight. January 1940 Wallie is walking into in the Munich Public Library He has decided to expand his studies and increase his travel plans, especially for outside of Europe. October 8, 1940 Via mail Wallie receives nice Luftwaffe wristwatch with picture of Heinkel jet on face. Enclosed is a note: "Happy Birthday and don't worry. I know you didn’t steal the diamonds. The search is off. Your friend Hermann Goering." Wallie looks surprised, and thinks, “Diamonds? Never knew I was a suspect. Glad Goring located me ahead of the Gestapo. I better phone him soon to make sure that they and everybody else knows as well.” February 1941 In a gun store, Wallie is hefting a Walther P-38. Gun dealer seems impressed with Wallie’s facile handling of this unfamiliar new weapon. As he buys it and a black leather side holster, he says to the dealer, “Excellent design. It fits my hand like a glove. I can release the safety and cock the hammer in one motion as I pull from I from the holster under my coat.” Sealer replies. “These days, you may well have to.” Wallie smirks thinking of the thugs in the alley. March 7, 1941. Wallie sees the strangest little rabbit out on the lawn. It keeps looking up at him as he clarifies the outline for his autobiography, "Diary of an SS Officer". On the phone, he initiates a deal with a publisher for immediate release at the end of war. He thinks to himself, “I will not begin the finishing touches until I see events winding down. This war might last forever.” Dec 3 1941 Wallie eating ham and eggs and listening to a newscaster on the radio, “Work has been halted on Hitler’s Autobahn project.” January 8, 1942 In a hobby store, Wallie buys a nice handmade model of the Battleship Tirpitz. He never got to see original. February 28, 1942 Over the Atlantic Ocean. Erskine Kelley, flying a fighter plane south, suddenly goes into a nose dive, and plummets into the sea. One evening two weeks later, Priscilla is sitting at a desk writing letters to friends. March 20, 1942 Wallie is reading a letter from Priscilla Kelly It says,
“Erk disappeared last month over an area they call the Bermuda Triangle before ever seeing any combat.
Wallie visits his mother in Gothenberg for a few days. They dine out a lot and enjoy fresh lobster on three occasions. March 16, 1944 France. There is a small plane skywriting. This is part of a ritual commemorating the seven hundredth anniversary of the Fall of Montsegur. Rosenberg and others are flying overhead creating Sun Wheel and Celtic Cross patterns with smoke. When Wallie finds out, he is sorry to have missed it, especially because of the extent of his involvement. July 25, 1944 Wallie decides not to write his autobiography. He thinks to himself, “I am well off enough money wise. The book might or might not be successful, but would certainly rob me of privacy, and possibly of personal safety.” He decides to continue the journal, however, just in case he changes his mind about the book later. December 16, 1944 Wallie’s mother goes through transition. January 2, 1945 At a cemetery in Gothenburg, Wallie and others are graveside. There is a Lutheran minister presiding over the ceremony on a pleasant warm day. Wallie brings a few of her things back with him.
May 7, 1945
Wallie eating oatmeal listening to
radio. Germany in ruins, concedes the war.
Aftermath June 26, 1945
San Francisco. Wallie is viewing the
Golden Gate Bridge with a thoughtful look. They are having a conference for founding of the United Nations. Wallie has become
very interested in this as a possible instrument of worldwide liberty and peace, despite many of the motives involved in the
creation. If people everywhere are simply educated about the ongoing interaction between international finance and politicians,
then they will not allow their countries to surrender national sovereignty as many now fear. It will be important that this
organization not aid any fascist or socialist countries no matter what the pressure may be to do so.
June 28, 1845 It looks to Wallie like his decision not to publish his autobiography is a good one. People are very angry about this war because of the prisoner of war camps. Most people act as though all SS men were in the Death's Head Unit. The fact that Wallie got out of Germany four years before the Final Solution concept was even adopted, won't matter to the kind of sloppy thinkers and moral cowards that would permit their governments to interfere in Germany’s business in the first place. October 24 1945 Eating bacon and rye toast, Wallie is listening to the radio. The United Nations Charter has just gone into effect. Wallie thinks to himself. “Let’s hope it works well for worldwide liberty and free enterprise. Individuals and civic groups need to act like constituents and write letters urging a policy of no compromise with fascist or socialist regimes.
“Too bad those who framed the Treaty of Versailles won't be held accountable as well. They structured things so that their banker friends would be able to finance another war, and it worked. Under such terms, good hardworking Germans would have to elect a strong leader like Hitler to save them from Communism. The desire to relocate Jews was a perfectly normal reaction to the events of this period, but things went wrong when the war started and the deportations had to stop. What really sealed things was the Allies' insistence on unconditional surrender. War is complex, but fools always try to make it simple. November 28, 1945 Wallie visits the site of the Luftwaffe JG7 Greyhound Squadron. Walking around among the buildings he is thinking to himself, “Probably the best squadron of this war. Major Erich Rudorffer alone had 224 kills. Very different from the first war. The old planes were much more maneuverable, but the increased number of hits has to do with the ability of the faster single wing planes to swoop out of the clouds and attack so quickly that the other pilot never has a chance to maneuver. Improving on-board detection devices may eventually offset this, of course. February 12, 1946 In a wood paneled living room, candles are burning on a large table in the dark. Three adults are in forest green robes. Nori and Greta Warner are standing together. Wallie is reading from a parchment scroll. Greta’s little blonde boy, Dirk is a cutie. Wallie
can see his parent's courage and integrity in his Icey blue Norse eyes already. He watches in wonder as Wallie initiates his
parents into a Norse panentheistic fraternity, known as the Ordo Sangrealis Baphometis, the universal name taken from Masonic Templarism. The adults conclude together:
“In Furtherance
of the New Aeon. Love is the Law. Love
Under Will. Hail unto the Aesir
and Vanir! Hail unto the Alfar! Hail Yggdrasil!
September 1946
In a nice English garden Wallie is
eating lunch with Aleister Crowley at his home in Hastings England. It's been a long time, but Crowley seems glad to see Wallie
again. They talk for hours. Crowley tells him the whole business about Mussolini running him out of Sicily. Wallie tells him
about the OSB. They discuss the war and the New Aeon, and agree that besides indigenous mythology, a person's spirituality
involves three main things: the degree of their intellectual understanding, the relative amount of good and evil present,
and the absolute amount of good and evil manifesting, which of course, only reflects the scale upon which the individual lives.
Wanting Crowley’s reaction, Wallie summarizes his feelings about religion
thusly:
“A truly viable spirituality must have perfect integrity between three basic components: ~ an intellectual premise consistent with all known science and which grows along with science ~ a moral premise reflecting absolute Libertarian reciprocity. This means no unjust encroachment against any individual or the environment to the detriment of any living thing. It also means no tolerance of such encroachment from others. ~ a source, not of dogmatic belief, but of archetypal inspiration, grounded in one's own ancestral mythology, for the deep sense of cultural rootedness this will confer.” The usually somber Crowley smiles with perfect delight. “Nicely put! I certainly hope you take up writing now that the war is over.” October 1, 1946 The International Military Tribunal hands down twenty one verdicts. Eleven are sentenced to death. The Russians murdered far more people than the Nazis, but they are not criminals because they are on the winning side. The entire struggle seems a very clownish enterprise. National Socialism vs International Socialism. Two equally false economic ideas with the international bankers manipulating the politicians and lending money to both sides. Just as in the last war Wallie loves all the people involved, but thinks they are a bunch of fools when it comes to economics. The world has been “made safe for Democracy” by leaving half of Europe under brutal Socialist dictators. Capitalism is what works, not Socialism. None of this nonsense had to happen. It's a pity that phony economic theory could have become so interwoven with Christian ideals and heroic Norse values connected with the simple preservation of race and culture. Both sides have been led equally astray. This war only illustrates the terrible consequences that can occur when men of power and those who support them are not well rounded in their education. Wallie knows that Russia will slowly build a capital base and will be able to initiate free enterprise eventually. He just hopes he’ll live long enough to see it. Recovery August 1947
In a factory office, Wallie is talking with Dr. Ferry Porsche, a handsome young
fellow wearing a grey herringbone tweed suit. Dr. Porsche is a very smart man, and is saying,
“Demand, even for luxury cars, is on the way up. I see only continued expansion for our company, unless history once again conspires to have us making Tiger Tank engines.” Wallie looks optimistic, “Glad to hear it. It seems there is good reason to think that Germany is rebounding very well since the war.” January
30, 1948 Wallie attends Winter Games at St. Moritz, France. He is talking with Paula Kann, a native Austrian girl on the American alpine team. She says, “There’s very good skiing in America since the war. Many who fought on skis in Norway got government loans and created mountain resorts all over the United States.” Wallie replies, “I guess some good can come even from war.” Paula nods affirmatively with a happy smile. March 1948 Wallie is standing in his driveway admiring one of the
first of the 356 Porsche cars. It looks like a bath tub upside-down, green with tan leather, a very good car that is like
riding on a leopard's back, because of the stiff suspension.
Wallie is tightening bolts to secure big amber fog lamps on the front bumper of the 356. Very gran tourismo looking, and effective too. Travels October 1948
Wallie is at his desk looking at pictures of ski resorts, and decides that from
here on he will travel a good deal. He will ski everywhere on Earth including places where there is not yet towing machinery,
as long as he can get information from locals about what lies beneath the surface snow.
October 5, 1949 Suddenly a man about sixty in a black hooded jersey and pants comes stealing out of the woods behind the house gripping a large pillow, his arms raised, rushing nimbly towards the boy as if to smother him with the pillow. Because of the rose bushes apparently, the man doesn't notice Wallie, who now raises his hand and waves briskly until the man sees him. He then points at the man correctively and the fellow runs back into the woods. The boy doesn't notice any of this. Wallie takes the boy by the hand and brings him into the house. There is nobody at home. As Wallie tries to phone the police, the boy is making menacing faces and violent gestures at a toy clown. He shows caution that Wallie not see him doing this. There is no answer. Wallie hangs up the phone and writes on the kitchen notepad, telling the boy's parents about the hooded man. Wallie looks sadly down at boy, who looks up with reflexive simian defiance. “Listen, little fellow. Please stay inside, because it's going to rain. I’m leaving now. Please also lock the door and keep it locked until your parents come home. It’s for your safety. Do you understand?” The boy nods yes. Outside Wallie tries door. The boy has locked it. Through
door window curtain Wallie sees the boy really going to town on the clown, slugging it in the nuts, pounding the head with
his fists. Wallie looks disgusted and shakes his head.
On vacation in America, Wallie visits Eric and Agnes Peterson, who are living in a nice little brick house on Buzzards' Bay in Falmouth Massachusetts. Agnes introduces her eight year old blonde grandson Carl, who excels in science and composition. She stays on the lawn watching the boy play with a gyroscopic toy. Eric and Wallie discuss new technology and the possible future as they drink cranberry juice on the rear deck facing the water. September 1956 In New York, one night Wallie is watching the Ed Sullivan Show on television. He sees a young hepcat with big sideburns, a very good singer, called Elvis Priestley. Wallie buys a supercharged Ford Thunderbird, red with tan interior. He finds it has fast acceleration, but is quite a petrol drinker by European standards. July 1962 Visiting Gothenburg for sentiment, Wallie runs into his father’s old friend Mungus Holme, a Thirty Second Degree Freemason, and well known womanizer, about 55 years old. His real name was once Magnus Peterson. He is Eric’s brother, who changed his name to escape somebody or something. September 1962 Wallie buys a twelve cylinder Ferrari Berlinetta, bright metallic blue with red interior. It’s very beautiful and fast, but needs too much fuel and maintenance. After a while, he decides it’s too uncomfortable because of the small seats and pedals. December 1963 Wallie is visiting England. A bit overdressed, but happy, he is sitting in the Crawdaddy Club at Richmond, Surrey. As the music starts, the announcer kicks it off thusly “Yes, these sounds belong to one man, one man known as the Menace, one man known as the Wizard of the Harp, one man known as...Sonny Boy Williamson!” There are cheers and applause for the American bluesman, also known as Rice Miller. Tonight he is with a fine combo, called the Yardbirds, doing the song “Bye Bye Bird.” Wallie is delighted by impressive young guitar player, Eric Clapton. August 1964 Vacationing in America Wallie is in a giant vegetable garden talking with Joe Wagner and Marie Gangolf, now living in a small farmhouse in Royalston Massachusetts. He haven't seen them since they were all kids. They left Europe just before the first war. In America, they grow onions bigger than grapefruits. September 17, 1966 Wallie, in his driveway, is admiring the first of the
new 911 Porsches, silver with tan interior, direct from the factory. It handles like the 356, but has much greater horsepower. He can't believe how fast he can drive this little beauty. It’s like a bat flying from Hell on a curving country road. April 1961 Wallie spends three weeks in London, and a good part of this with Albert Speer. London has been nicely rebuilt since the war and is quite a fun place. Spear seems very glad to show Wallie around. It's always fun to talk with people you knew during more eventful times. Spear has written a book about the whole thing. January 18, 1968 Speer’s example inspires him, so Wallie decides to complete his autobiography after all. If they kill him now, at his age it won't matter too much.
1969 Wallie visits Boston Massachusetts. One day at Durgin Park, seated, at a big table with others, he enjoys half a roast duck with Indian Pudding for desert. For lunch, another day, he has beef tongue on rye at Jake Wirth's in the Theater District. Wallie contacts Carl Peterson, who he hasn't seen for many years. Carl is now attending Suffolk University as a student of psychology, and wears his hair like Brian Jones. Carl invites Wallie to hear Victor Frankl lecture at the college. Later, at a tea held in Frankl's honor, they talk briefly with Frankl, now about sixty four, and then at greater length with Dr. Robert Webb, a likeable man with a crew cut, about forty two, and.one of Carl's professors What a small world it is, Wallie thinks. It turns out that Webb's mentor in experimental psychology was himself a student of Wilhelm Wundt, who was a friend of Wallie’s father years ago in Leipzig. Afterwards in the Beacon Chambers Hotel Cafeteria, Wallie is sliding his tray along the cafeteria counter with Carl and another student, Frank Adrisi. A crabby looking black-haired waitress with rhinestone glasses, black uniform with white lace trim, and a total early 1950s look, screeches Wallie’s order to the cook outback. “Cheese Burger – Trilbee!” This is a very special sandwich with red onion. In one of several dark wooden booths along the opposite wall, they enjoy their food with golden beers. Carl and Frank are both 356 Porsche owners; and both are planning to study clinical psychology, Carl undecided as to where, Frank at the University of Chicago starting in autumn 1970. August 1969 Visiting the United States. Wallie finally gets to hear the extraordinary rock and roll combo, Led Zeppelin. There is a nostalgic mental association of course, but mostly he likes the music. Talking with a pretty young girl, she says. “I’m surprised that you would be into this.” Wallie replies, “Well, it seems a logical evolution
of blues to me. I find it difficult to understand how somebody can play guitar as well as Jimmy Page. I think he must pursue
arcane studies and take special finger nutrients. I admire the thread of Professor Tolkien’s vision I hear in some of
his work. I think of it as the inspired music of heroic destiny.
August 12, 1974 Dover Massachusetts. While visiting friends, Wallie learns some facts that carry him once again to the uphill corner of Bretton and Abbey Road. It is early morning, and he is remembering. He thinks to himself, “Sometimes evil can come from good intentions. It pains me to think it, but things I have found out now make me feel that I should not have saved that little boy from the hooded man with the pillow on that autumn day way back in 1949. Apparently the look of constitutional psychopathy which I noticed in him so long ago has finally born a great deal of very rotten fruit.” He is visualizing a woman at the end of a rope with the toppled chair on the floor at her feet. September 1982 Wallie reads an investment book by smart young Libertarian, Douglas Casey, who claims that Soviet Union will soon break up into component countries. Wallie thinks Casey may be right and decides to invest some of his money accordingly.
On a train in Europe, Wallie is enjoying a club sandwich in the dining car, watching beautiful country scenery roll by fast outside the large windows. He has been riding trains all over Europe recently, and is impressed by how streamlined they are, and so much faster than years ago. The Wall January 5, 1988
At the US Customs House in Derby Line Vermont, officials have detained Wallie crossing back in from Canada. Outside the
big window, it’s snowing. Wallie goes into the garage to observe while officers search his silver Porsche 911. He gets
talking with a treasury agent about world events.
Treasury agent, “What do you think will happen in Russia?” Wallie replies, “If you had asked me that a few months ago I probably would have given a standard answer, but this Gorbachev fellow is a very great man and I expect to see big changes in Russia soon. Capitalist changes! Treasury man. “I hope you’re right.” Wallie points at one of the customs men who is searching even his cars air cleaner, “You there, be sure to change the oil and check the plugs while you’re at it!” They all laugh. Treasury man, “Sorry we detained you in this storm, but your description exactly fits a man who robbed a bank in Montreal earlier today. Wallie thinks to himself, “Probably bullshit, but there are much worse people in the US Government than these guys... plus they probably have to meet a quota.” Wallie waves as he drives off. November 9, 1989 Wallie watching TV news as he eats sausage, sunny-side-up
eggs with rye toast, and strawberries. The TV says that the Berlin Wall is about to fall. November 10, 1989
West Berlin. At a train station, Wallie is walking along happily with others. Over two million East Germans are flooding
in to visit the west.
November 11, 1989
The radio says that the communist government is collapsing. Wallie visits East Berlin, and is beaming with delight. People
are walking around drinking champagne. The empty bottles everywhere litter the streets. Restaurants and stores are open. Wallie
feels delighted to have lived long enough to see these wonderful events.
November 14, 1989
East Berlin. In a park, Wallie is sitting admiring the view with a thoughtful look, He thinks to himself, “Now
that it's all over I will admit that it would have been difficult for Russia to go directly from medieval feudalism to free
enterprise without any capital base for industrialization. This could only have been accomplished with massive foreign ownership
of business, a great evil in itself. Perhaps seventy years of industrial socialism was necessary to bring Russia to this splendid
day. In a funny way Karl Marx is vindicated by the state having finally ‘withered away’ as he predicted.”
The Future March 14, 1990
At a mountain resort in the Swiss Alps, Wallie and Helga Ingram are on skis standing in a short lift line. There is awesome
mountain scenery in background. Wallie looks at Helga, who is still beautiful, He says, “I heard a cruel, but thought-provoking,
joke last week: Why are Jews so smart?
Helga looks quizzical. “And they are, of course... but why?” Wallie replies, ”because all the stupid ones remained in Germany after 1933. Sadly, there is a valid point to this. It's easy for me to understand how they felt. I loved Germany too and didn't want to leave. I rationalized for a long time about what was happening. When it did happen, it suddenly seemed obvious. Helga looks solemn. Wallie gazes at the magnificent scenery like he is looking to the future. Wallie continues, “Liberty is the only thing that works, and it will triumph everywhere eventually, but sometimes common sense must override unmitigated optimism and stubborn pride. History does not move as fast as we might want it to and one must, after all, live to fight another day.
Roy C. Peterson
May 17, 2016
1:33 P.M.
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